Not I

PLAY W1 (3 min): 1_W1_HMS 494 694- Class 8.mp3

Around 2014 I started to listen to this sound –

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I had been making recordings of myself teaching,

being a young teacher

I was very self conscious that all the knowledge I tried to pack in my brain before each class, wouldn’t stick there to reference the next semester.

Sometimes I did end up using these recordings as a refresher for myself,

but they mostly just aggregated.

At some point I started to listen specifically to these accidental parts of these recordings

Along the margins

PLAY W2 (3:15): 1_W2_HMS 494 694- Class 9 pt 1_V2.mp3

Listening for

Changes in pace

Changes in enclosure

Signs that it was me, there

[AT 2:15]

I also heard

The chatter at the start of class

My first questions

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PLAY E1: 2_E1_Hms220 F15 Wk15 M.mp3

How I started class

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PLAY E1.1 + PLAY E1.2 (“why is everyone so far from me”)

PLAY E2 + 2.2 + LE (“see you Monday”)

And how I greeted students

By 2018

I had amassed an enormous amount of hellos and goodbyes

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The sounds that bookended my time teaching

PLAY EW1 – Waiting (1:30): 3_EW1_Hms201 Sp18 Wk13 W.

What it sounded like to wait for them

I think of this as teaching without the learning. …

[sneeze]

… All the moments without the information.

But that have the same meaningfulness to them as the word “dear.”

PLAY EW2 – (AMBIENT): mp3 3_EW2_HMS 494 694- Class 7 Entry.mp3

If there’s something that defines those moments,   of these ambient shifts, goodbyes hellos, boundary crossings,…that characterizes them,… I wanted to draw out that figure in other moments of teaching. 

Some spirit that was animated by everything but the learning

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PAUSE AUDIO

This object here is a tool a fairly simple instrument that i use to meet with groups of teachers and listen to the sounds of our own teaching. It’s a kind of hearth and a kind of animator. It has a series of jacks along the top, here, and on the side that allow up to 18 people to listen simultaneously while controlling their own volume.

[rotate halfway]

on the side is this wand which is a Bluetooth input to receive audio sent from my phone or any other computer. 

…and on the back here are a series of controls that give shape to the animation of this spirit.

Pursed

Cupids bow  + lower dip

Filler for the top + heart shape or / puppet fold for the bottom

Filler on the Bottom / Flip on the top